Rhapsody of me

2007-01-01T15:55:00.000-08:00

Life is like a wheel, a cycle.
It rotates and will keep rotating when it has to.
As for me, a brand new life awaits to behold and
I believe its time to move on.

yesh, life is everchanging and im intranslation.

MOVED to a presumably better place.
(the tagboard will be keep alive as a portal to keep in touch)

GOODBYE

2006-12-29T02:53:00.000-08:00

boo hoo!
my emotions are weird now.
i have mixed feelings.
i don't know wether i'm happy or i'm disappointed with the decision i've made.

ouh, wondering what im babbling about?
its about the subjects i'm taking in jc.
MY FIRST CHOICE OF SUBJECT COMBINATION IS INVALID.
like FU*K!
(c304 h2 maths h2 econs h2 mll and i opted h1 phy)
the reason being, no one took h2 econs, like BOOH LA!
and THE BLARDY FARNIE THING IS they suggest me to take
h2 chemistry in lieu of h2 econs.
I WAS SHOCKED LA.
if i took h2 chem, that simply means i'll be doing more of the science stream
subjects. (h2 chem h2 maths h2 mll h1 phy, get the picture? lol)
and what i want i do a balance of both arts and science like my first choice.
so sad la and they don't give me time to think!
they expected a confirmed and final decision from me at that moment
cox they doing the allocation that moment.
i was like "WAT THE FU*KING HELL! whatever decision i made will be the
subject im taking, final, confirmed."
so irrationally, i decided to take
h2 phy h2 maths h2 mll h1 hist
LIKE BOOH! i don't know wether its a good or a bad decision sia.
ITS H2 PHY! ITS PHY! ITS PURE PHY! ITS ALEVEL PHY!
urgh, im so scared la!
to make matter worst, HIST IS LIKE AN EXTRA BURDEN SIA!
hur hur. the extra h1 subject is so extra la!
so now im like in the science stream.
there's four "C"s.
c1 and c2 is more sci-inclined whereas c3 and c4 is more arts-inclined.
im now in c210. BOOH!

but funny thing is im sort of happy. being in science stream is cool la.
wait? did i jus said cool?
fu*k. i almost forgot. cool and HELL LOTS OF STRESS.
but then again, this decision sort of boosted me to study hard sia.
=mixed feelings. emotions wild.
thats all i can said.
LOLNESS

2006-12-22T20:51:00.000-08:00

hola
here's some k drama you peeps might wanna watch
check it out =D

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=F712E423806F7944
rain's hot. the girl's cute. what more can you ask for! lol

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=54092165A17B1E5F&page=3
MY GIRL! SUPER DUPER HILARIOUS xD

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_list?p=B719C85F9CE9AA19
sweet :D

my lovely samsoon is wacky and funny.

daejanggeum can be abit long and draggy but IT IS NICE KAYS

i l-u-r-v-e korean show
lolness
ok won't be bloggin soon.
enjoy the remaining days of my holidays!
=D

2006-12-20T16:20:00.000-08:00

FULL HOUSE IS UBER NICE LIKE SHIT!
HAHA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ILRZtxHvsMI
HAVE TO WATCH THIS! FUCKING HILARIOUS! LOLNESS

2006-12-17T20:27:00.000-08:00

IM FULL HOUSING
AND I L-U-R-V-E it!

next will be stairway to heaven
=D

2006-12-16T10:14:00.000-08:00

IM BACK!
for good.
one word, FETCH'd!
i l-u-r-v-e KOREA.
i think koreans have great sense of fashion.
i l-u-r-v-e their dressing style.
the guys looks shuai while the girls looks totally cool.
teenagers of course. but there's also some adults who are cool.
their winter clothings totally uber FETCH'd!
so cool LAH.
thus, i conclude that Singapore fashion sense is rather EEKK!
jus an opinion =p
other than the people, the weather is uber chilly but i l-u-r-v-e it
and i l-u-r-v-e their history, their palace.
LOLNESS maybe because im a fanatic of daejanggeum.
and ouh, did i mention that i have an elegant sophiscated beautiful
lady who is actually almost 40years as my tour guide as well as this
drop dead gorgeous kind of guys where girls look and they'll go KUKU
as our group photographer? HAHA LOLNESS
KOREA TOTALLY ROCKS MY SOCKS.

pictures will be updated soon, if i have the mood.
soveniurs will be distributed only if you date me out. HAHA

and ouh, i made it to IJC (arts).
woo hoo~! im happy, i guess.
LOLNESS

ok, im tired. i need to sleep.
RWAR.

2006-12-08T16:12:00.000-08:00

I know, I know,
I said im not gonna blog for the time being.
but i guess its rude leaving just like tat so
i have to blog before i fly to korea in 2 days time.
and the weird thing is, my excitedness kinda died.
part of me don't feel like going to korea which i dunno why
cox i've been waiting to leave my mark in korea eversince
i became a korean show fanatic.
LOLNESS
but nevertheless, im still going and i hope. wait, i better,
enjoy myself there.

psst, the only thing im excited now
is DaeJanggeum. i just can't get it out of my head. i miss
watching it. =x

anyway, HELP! I DUNNO HOW IN THE WORLD AM I
SUPPOSED TO CHECK MY PAE POSTING OF SCH RESULT
since im in korea. initially i thought of using the computer there
but what if the PAE system does not reach overseas.
ANY KIND SOUL CAN CHECK FOR ME =D hahahaha

ok, this time i wont blog no more till i'm back or till i'm happy
to blog again.
so decided to leave you people with something i found at youtube.
MUST CHECK IT OUT KAES =p
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qW2jplF-gTc
SHE IS SO MY GALFREN, i wish xD

2006-12-07T02:06:00.000-08:00

firstly i would like to apologise to my uber
fantabulous readers for not updating.

its simple. let me explain.
the reason is
a mixture of busyness, laziness, shortage of time, tight post Olvl activities
as well as
some personal reasons which soon you'll find out.
lolness

anyway, don't be too delighted as im not gonna blog much.
its jus that this whole week has been kinda hectic. and im
even even excited to fly to korea as the day approaches.
lolness. whatever it is, pray hard to see me again to blog
aite.

=D
won't be blogging for the time being.
its vacation period~!
lolness

2006-12-03T10:13:00.000-08:00

firstly
DAMN MY COMPUTER!
damn damn damn
obvious ain't it, it is spoieds x)
and now, im using my dad's laptop.
and as for the sicked computer, i've decided to
sell it away if its still in good shape and purchase
a laptop for myself cause it will come in handy
for next year school stuffs especially project work.
=D so can't wait to get my own lappy.
LOLNESS imadness x_x

finally, 70 episodes of Dae Jang Geum is over.
idepressedness!
such a nice story. it illustrates that there's no shortcuts in
order to achieve success and playing mean would only bring
destruction to oneself. Not only that, it also portrayed the idea
that status, wealth, power and domination are not the only
things in this world. Dignity, self-respect as well as sincerity
are as important for one to be a good person. Furthermore,
jewel in the palace proves that not only men can do wonders,
women also have an equal level of playing field in contributing
to the society. HAHA! thus, in my final analysis, with all the
reasons above, JEWEL IN THE PALACE is a must-have-in-
your-collections of dvds/vcds. =) LOLNESS

anyway, im bored everyday from now on. i need to get a life.
LOLNESS xD i have been saving money to shop but i find it
unnecessary since i'll be going to Korea to shop. so i shall keep
the money for emergency cases.
SEE! I AM THOUGHTFUL with the as if.

HAHAHA! korea korea here i come. im jus so excited man!
hey, cant blame me. im a korean fanatic. LOLNESS
ok, shall update more if i have the opportunity.
adiouz peeps
^^

2006-12-01T03:25:00.000-08:00

OOPPSS
my apologies for not updating for the past 5 days.
blame the addiction to Kdrama.
LOLNESS
and OMG! speaking of Korea, its alreadie 1 december 2006.
10 more days and i'll be going to korea HURRAYNESS x)
iexcitedness
and and, 13 more days to the results of PAE sch posting,
iuberexcitedness
hopefully i can make it to IJC and get the MLEP
LOLNESS

wokey, back to the main point
i have been neglecting to blog cox i was busy marathoning
watching Jewel in the Palace. yea yea, i noe. its like so yesterday.
but i didn't have the chance to watch it on tv few months ago
cox i was supposedly preparing for Os. now Os is done with,
its time to catch up with it. overall, DaChangJin is a very long show
but very nice! =D love it. its a MUST watch.
and im so addicted to it hahahaha x))
LOLNESS

anyway, went back to band yesterday. met sharon, chu ern, SJ
and BJ. been quite some time since the five of us went out together.
we're bunch of lunatics who can laugh out of nothingness. anyway,
got nothing much to comment on the band. still the same old attitude
and same oldnaughtiness as well as laziness. but but, from my point
of view, QSS band would have slim chance in achieving wonders for
the next SYF. the set piece are hxc challenging and very very
difficult for QSS band standard. so all i can say to QSS band,
"BEST OF LUCKS =D"
unless they can do miracles and work extremely hard whichi doubt so.
LOLNESS

and also, went to ACS band concert in the evening yesterday.
BJ! U OWE US DINNER. LOLNESS.
nothing much to comment on also. they're superb. what else can i said.
LOLNESS.
creative and very very good. thats their band.
LOLNESS.
i really envy those in good band. hais, sometimes when I think back
again, i kinda regret joining QSS band.
but WHO CARES! I'VE GRADUATED! gib a fuck.
LOLNESS

ok, shall end here. i wanna watch my DACHANGJIN.
LOLNESS x)

2006-11-26T09:22:00.000-08:00

woots!
its 1.15 am and i'm bloggin at wee hours
LOLNESS xD
can't sleep yet thus decided to blog.
come on! bloggin is like the only thing to occupy
my time in this UBER BORING holidays.
LOLNESS

my grandma fell sick again and is in the hospital now
*sent a little prayer for her*
Other than that, today is just an ordinary Sunday.
yea I know, Sunday shouldn't be ordinary but what
can I do?! Im an utter boring person duh~

anyway, jus ended my k-show.
GOD IT WAS A GREAT SHOW. and this time, its
really really a saddening show. both the hero and
the heroine faced with medical difficulties. such a
nice show to watch. =) its "NOW and FOREVER".
I can't wait to borrow "JEWEL IN THE PALACE".
I know, I know, Im obselete. but i didnt initially
like the show but after I've watched an episode
today on Channel U, I like it. haha. weird me.
i've watched plenty of K-show such as
THE COOL GUY
MY BOYFRIEND IS BLOOD TYPE B
MY SASSY GIRL
INNOCENT STEPS
LOVE SO DIVINE
GUNS AND TALKS
A MOMENT TO REMEMBER
SHE'S OFF DUTY
A SEASON OF LOVE
ROMANCE OF THEIR OWN
NOW AND FOREVER
and a few others which I can't remember cause I
don't really like them. I only remember those I
really like. hahaha LOLNESS
and and not forgetting K-dramas such as
MY LOVELY SAMSOON
GOONG!
and Im pretty sure more to be added to my list =DD
speaking of korea,
GOSH, im really excited to go to KOREA la!
hahaha
LOLNESS

besides rotting myself at home and indulging myself
with K-shows, I also read this malay book called "SALINA"
half way thru it and its really nice. really speaks of
the trueness of life during post ww2 period. not forgetting
that, I have to complete 1 more malay book and 2
more english books before the date due comes to return
them back to the library. AND AND of course, my NEW katie
macAlister books will be accompanying me to KOREA.
=)

now to summarise my hols; looks like it will be more of
an educational vacation for me. LOLNESS. with plenty of
books to catch up and of course, DaChangJin and other
more K-shows to watch, Im sure I'll enjoy my hols.
DONT WORRY, i still do squeeze outings, shoppings and
chilling outs in my hols schedule. DO CONTACT ME PEEPS!

long post.
LOLNESS
adiouz

2006-11-25T07:37:00.000-08:00

wow.
miraculously, today i stayed at home the whole day.
it was madness. boredom really really kills me.

HURRAY.
cleaned up my messy study table and shelves.
it's very very empty now. threw all the papers
given to me for the past 4 years.
and seriously, i think im mad. i can't wait to
start studying again and put all my new ~~jc stuffs~~.
WOO HOO! LOLNESS
ok, i shouldn't be imagining of going jc =but but u cant blame me for being excited.
bleahx >.<

supposed to be watching a beautiful mind on tv now
but im really sleepy. those kind of show can only be
watched if im really really full of energy.
till then, adiouz

2006-11-24T03:43:00.000-08:00

BOO HOO!
im uber bored
and i still have about a month to bare with this
utter killing of boredom
LOLNESS
but but! its much better than studying
=D
anyways, I NEED TO SPICE UP MY LIFE
but the question is how?
LOLNESS
someone help me out pwease x)

went to NUH for my appointment. bleah. waste of
my time. its the same like going to the polyclinic.
and im now surfing the net aimlessly.
AUDITION looks kinda lame?
guess, i should try it out to find out

ADIOUZ

2006-11-23T05:09:00.000-08:00

another day of post olevel activities.

went out todae with my dad and twin sis. firstly, my dad
went to pay the balance cost for our trip to Korea. so excited.
jus cant wait to step my foot into the land of AMAZEMENT.
LOLNESS

speaking of korea, i've watched one of the K show i borrowed.
ROMANCE OF THEIR OWN totally rocks. the guys hot. the
girl sweet. the story real sad. such a fantabulous show =DD

ok back to my post Olvl activities,
then, weheaded to Sim Lim to buy a music making programme which
i wanna. I couldn't find Acid Pro 6 =( but in the end, i bought the
MAGIX MUSIC MAKER 11 DELUXE which cost around $75.
and guess wat, i played with it and im bored of it alreadie =X.
haha lol. afterwards, we went to haf our lunch at westcoast.
cheap but REAL nice and fulfilling. LOLNESS xD

ok, im hungry as always. eating!
adiouz =D

2006-11-22T02:03:00.000-08:00

[REUPDATED]
Wednesday 22/11/2006 5.54 pm
its Hady Mirza "you give me wings" on tv now.
LOLNESS
im not a biggie fan of him x)
but yea, he can sing.

Anyway, woke up this morning with plenty to think about.
I was so lost wether i choose the arts or science stream if
i'm able to get into a junior college.
After much considerations, i finally register for the PAE.
here's my choices of courses,
1. IJC arts
2. IJC science
3. PJC science
4. PJC arts
5. JJC arts
6. JJC science
7. MI arts
8. MI science
9. YJC arts
10. YJC science
Elective Programme Chosen: MLEP
I really hope i can get into IJC =) .
*prays hard*

went to Jurong Polyclinic in the noon. goodness.
If I have a dying disease, i would have alreadie died. x)
really! the government should do something bout
the service in polyclinics. I don't mean extreme and
radical changes. I'm jus saying to improve on how to
make the service more efficient and smooth.
seriously, the service now is way too screwed up =x

and im sitting in front of the TV now. bored. as usual.
HAHA

adiouz

[the updated part x)]
ok. i seriously don't believe in the horoscope stuffs.
but i jus look at it as advices, a great one in fact. =)

You are ready for serious bold action today!
It's time to step up and make the grand gestures you
know you can make. If you've been beating around the bush
with someone you have growing feelings for, today is the day
to confess your true feelings. It's now or never.
If you have been contemplating a travel adventure,
today is the day to book the tickets and commit to going.
Time is slipping away; you need to act now to get what you want.

2006-11-21T04:12:00.000-08:00

1st part:
warning
big warning!
=\ boredom kicks in real fast during your post Olvl activities
so anyone who wanna chill out, jus tag me or something =)

LOLNESS

anyway, went back to QSS today to get the PAE form A
the form says,
"Based on the 2006 School Preliminary Examination Results,
You are eligible for the 2-Year and 3-Year Pre-U Courses."
xD LOLNESS
then, went to ICA building to extend my passport with Sam.
thank god it was a breeze. =D
after that, met Puv and we went ViVo-city. the place is rather
similar to any other shopping mall except that its gargantuan
and have a public "swimming pool" on the roof top. other than
that, its a boring place.
by jus spending my days like that kills me alot.
im so damn sleepy now and zero-energy.

I SO NEED TO WORK OUT. x)

[REUPDATE]

2nd part:
thought i wanna share wif you peeps something thought-provoking
=D

You need a stimulating dose of culture today.
Go investigate a new show at an art museum,
walk down an aisle that you don't usually check out at the record store,
or just enjoy dinner at an ethnic restaurant you've never tried before.
New types of food, music and art might confuse you or even bore you,
but stepping out of your normal routine is a powerful way to remind
yourself that your life is a path you choose to take.
You are in control.

2006-11-20T04:54:00.000-08:00

20.11.2006
it finally ended.
4 years of educating a hopeless boy like me
and it came to an end =)

wasn't such a big deal that O'level ended anyway
cause i celebrated that moment last fridae x) lol
5152/01 was easy peasy, i guess. it helped me to
gain more confidence of getting distinctions or even
an A1 for 5152 xD i hope lol. nuff bout Olvl.

WOO HOO. my post Olvl activities began todae.
met izza todae.
went out wif haz and rou fang.
had lunch at pizzahut =D nice
bought 2 books of Katie MacAlister
borrowed some english and malay novels
borrowed some Korean vcds

time to enjoy my hols

2006-11-17T09:35:00.000-08:00

HURRAYNESS~!
my Os is sorta over :)
left 1 more hour of O'lvl (5152/01) and its history

speaking of history, history paper suck.
with the big SUCK FUCK.
i'm a gambler so i did narrow down to some chapters only.
greatly, china was in SBQ but fuck it.
the questions are hxc difficult to answer.
SEQ was total piece of crap shit. the topics i mug didnt came
out. but thankfully, god blessed me because on the day
of the paper itself, i mug the WW1 topic due to my panic attack
and it came out. but i didnt mug well for it. so SEQ was much
of "my own" crappy history.
BOO HOO to history.
fuck it!

watched material girls today. it was a UH-WAT-THE-HELL kind
of show. kinda boring too. but thats jus my opinion.
woo hoo, i feel free. i wanna enjoy. enjoy big time!
HAHA
xD madness

2006-11-13T05:24:00.000-08:00

wow. bush is coming to singapore! (blearghx..big deal) and
our GCE O'lvl amaths paper 2 is postponed
AN HOUR LATER!

=.= how lame~

im supposed to mug for amaths now but im tired. my eyelids
are damn heavy! haha xD wth. but i did practice like shit ok?!?!
and as for history, i only left to memorise russia topics. im done
with the PAIN IN THE ASS china topics.

I really hope i can do much better than prelims for my Olvl. so far
its much better than prelims, i guess. I wanna achieve at least 3
distinctions the minimum. more if there's " rezeki" for me. but but
my efforts doesn't seem to equate to OUTSTANDING performance.
guess shouldn't think much about it.

AND AND to think of it, i insult history like 24/7 but ironically it
seems to be one of the subjects i'll be taking in JC;if ever i can enter
one that is. hais sad sad! sad case
xDD

anyway, i cant wait for POST-OLVL ACTIVITES. haha
there will be plenty of shoppin, movie-ing, chillin out, BBQ-ing
and i miss band, so most prolly i might go back and give them a
visit.

and lastly, KOREA KOREA KOREA! HAHAHA. im so excited!
CANT FRIGGIN WAIT. but holy crap, the trip is in dec x_x

ok, back to muggin AMATHS. hopefully
adiouz =D

2006-11-08T09:04:00.000-08:00

HOLA MY LOVELY PEEPS~!

gosh. in a blink of an eye, im done with half of my Olvl
and im friggin saturated with MADNESS OF HAPPINESS!
=DD

left the killers one i shall put it
Amaths as well as History. hais
but look on the brightside, it going to be over soon!
GAWD. THE THOUGHT OF IT JUS MAKES ME INSANE!

hurray. im goin korea in december. im totally gonna let loose
there and friggin enjoy my sowie ass there!
UBER AWESOME xD
and ouh, i told my parents that i wanna go IJC since they
offered the MLEP programme but my otherself is like telling
me no cause i've got no friends going there, i guess.
so its either IJC, PJC or JJC.

shit. im in the midst of Os and i am already enjoying
AHA! TYPICAL STUDENT! xD
lawl

2006-10-26T10:27:00.000-07:00

OLVLs COMING~
IM EXCITED~

HAAHAHAHAH
SHIT. IM MAD.
Os COMING N IM HAVIN KDRAMA FEVER~
PRINCESS HOUR~

lol heard that princess hour 2 characters are all different~

2006-10-20T21:29:00.000-07:00

HURRAY!
i've completed my secondary school education
COOLNESS. totally~

haha.
to make matter worst, i almost missed my own graduation ceremony.
the initial plan was to come to school late. the whole point of that was to
skip all the fuckin boring lessons and jus attend the graduation ceremony.
then then~
I OVERSLEPT and my mum woke me up at 11.00 am!
haha. and and the graduation ceremony starts at 11+ am!!
cabbed down to school and ouh, did i mention that the driver is a fuckin
SLUT!~ i specifically told him i'm late for something important so please,
i repeat, PLEASE drive faster~
but but instead, he drove UBER slow and took the LONGER way
8.10 down the drain~ hell to him xD

the graduation ceremony was lame though. but that's the whole point.
to lame together with your class for the last time.
I killed myself if I said this but IM SO GONNA MISS 404!
404! GO GO! WOOO HHHOOO! WE SHOW STOPPERS 404~!
ok, im totally insane now

now, its all about Olevel
then, its ENJOYMENT TIME! TOTALLY FETCH'd~
YIPPEE

2006-10-04T03:04:00.000-07:00

HOLA PEEPS

damn. YOU KNOW WHAT~
i think im gonna miss 404 when Olvl ended de
i know i know, initially when we started, i loathed
the class but things changed.
WE ARE LIKE SO UNITED NOW LOR.

anyway, to my fellow classmates
DUN BE DISAPPOINTED BY THE PRELIMS RESULT HOR~
ITSOKAE! WE SHALL ALL GO TO PJC FOR 3 MTH COURSE
AND IF CANNOT, HAHA, NEXT STOP IJC K! =DD
AND OUH YA, JIA YOU WOR FOR OLVL DE~
BRING 404 GLORY~!

nuff crappin.
my l1r5 17. r4 13. class position 5th.
ouh well. seems good. but compared to the rest of the
level, it suck. ^^

ADIOUS~

2006-09-29T22:30:00.000-07:00

the results did speak for itself~

eng -NOT SURE. but most prolly 5 or 6. disappointing but its done with
emaths - 3 well, i did screwed up paper 2. paper one was good. so yea
amaths - 4 like i said, i lost my hp on the dae of amaths paper 2. so hell yea
sci - 1 IM PROUD OF MYSELF =D
humanities - NOT SURE cox i pon sch on fri xD most prolly 3 or 4
and
MT - 1 fully secured

thus, if calculate estimately, l1r5 17 or 18.
Im thinkin of going PJC =DD

haha nuff said.
i repeat, the results speak for itself~

2006-09-25T05:02:00.000-07:00

OH MY!
IM SO UNLUCKY.
I LOST MY HP.
I SCREWED UP MY AMATHS PAPER 2
I'M DOOMED =x

OUH WELL, NUFF SAID
TOO MUCH NEGATIVITY POURING OUT RIGHT NOW!

2006-09-22T19:23:00.000-07:00

after a long break, im finally back to blog to keep
you peeps updated.

haha =D

my preliminary examination is ending in urm, 2 days more!
I AM SO HAPPY! =DD
amaths paper 2 and phy/chem paper 1!
WOO HOO! time really flies so fast. you know, its like 1 min
ago you're panicking shit for prelim cox u didnt even bother
to mug and 1 min later, you have scraped through prelims and
about to end it as the matter in fact.
and the good thing is most people would conclude that prelim
is difficult and a killer but I have no idea why I find it relatively
easy *im not boasting or wat, n i can gurantee u i cant score straight
A's* What i'm saying is that prelim is not like what i expected. I didn't
even mug properly but still i'm afford to do it. Guess, the results will
speak for itself later.

anyway, about prelims. the papers which I kinda screwed up are
science practicals, eng paper 1 and emaths paper 2. The rest I did
quite fair, i hope.
here's my aim for Prelim which hopefully is enuff to enter any jc.
eng b3
emaths b3 but if luck on my side a2
amaths urm, based from paper 1, b3?
humanities a2 hopefully!! if not, b3
science a2
and of cox, my MT a secured a1.
thus, it sum up L1r5 estimately around 14
and ouh, IM RATHER SAD WITH MY CCA POINT!!!
i can only minus 1 point.
but itsover, im determined to score as low as possible
so the cca point is a redundant thing to me now. =D

I REALLY HOPE I CAN GET INTO THE 3 MTH COURSE JC[PAE]!

once prelim ends, i can start meeting up those
people whom i've rather neglected lately.
YEA U IZZA =P
we'll meet up one day aite. ^^

2006-09-09T22:11:00.000-07:00

PRELIMS IS SO NEAR!

so on hiatus ~

2006-08-26T06:16:00.000-07:00

I'm officially depressed.
and this time, I DAMN SERIOUS

hais.
i feel like breaking down but i cant
i feel like dying but i cant
i feel like crying but i cant
seems like no one understands me
what makes the matter worst is when
the people are your loved ones.

this time it so so serious.
im at the verge of breakin down.
but i still have O's
so no matter what i must hold on
I MUST. I MUST!

=(

2006-08-13T07:07:00.001-07:00

dghdfhsrh

2006-08-13T07:07:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,

during times like this, i like to daydream and imagine
alot. An ant or a bee would be an ideal animal for me to
idolise now. SMALL yet diligent. Despite the fact that
they work in collections, i really have to be like them.
As hardworking as them. As efficient as them. My
future is in my hand. Its either I shape it well or I dump
it away. My choice. but I go with the conventional way.
to live on the brightside of the world
:)

Anyway, studying with JC people surrounding you is
so demoralising.

I FELT STUPID.

thou i am, i felt even stupid-er.
lols. guess should not let my ego take over me
:x

2006-08-11T04:31:00.000-07:00

Dear blog,

ever wonder why some people are just lucky?
there are billions of people in the world but you
are exceptionally chosen to have a great luck.
sometimes to think how the world or life works,
it just gonna give u a NASTY crack in ur brain.
and well,
I considered myself as lucky.
Blessed perhaps.
I honestly couldn't have done it without the determination
god that planted it in me.
I thee am grateful to god for this fantabulous achievement
he provided me with which thus give me the utter
movitation to even strive harder for other achievements.
This moment, I'm in elation but of course, complacency
shouldn't surpass. More challenges to come and
I shall await it.

as for my friends who didn't perform to what you expected,
Life's too short for us to sulk. More importantly, learning
from mistakes is one of the greatest lessons in the world.
Don't give up. Just keep on tryin. Thats what a true fighter is.
and usually, a fighter is a winner, trust me
:)

as for now, I should start channelling my emotions and
energies on my O'level. or rather, my friends too. All I need
is countless motivations and encouragements from the people
around me. I'm mean. I have a very low self-esteem. Thus,
words of mocking to strive better would boost me to even get off
my butt and start pumping.

1 down. 5 subjects remaining.
with god's will,
I know I can do it.
=)